HELLO
I hope people are still reading this before they think my blog is dead again.
Don't worry I'm still alive. I've just been busy with work. For the previous week I was working from 12 to 10.30 alot, and it totals up to 46 hours of work.
Well I've tried everything in the restaurant now and I must say I'm starting to get the hang of it. But of course I'm still not as fast as the other experienced workers. The worst part of it is, I'm actually getting abit sian of the job sometimes, esp when there's nothing to do or when I've worked for the whole day and I feel shagged. Well well. For the money, I shall persevere :D
I promise I'll take photos of my job, probably on the last day of work I'll try to take a pic with everyone as part of my memories haha.
As for this week, it's sian cos it's filled with dance prac. omg sulao is coming back. OH MY GOD. i haven't stretched in ages!!! Yarh I know, I desperately need to EXERCISE!!! But everytime I have free time when I'm not working, there isn't a chance for me to exercise. Either it's raining, or I have to go out with my parents. I wanted to go running today, but it was raining for the whole day -.-
Ooh xmas is coming soon! This means lots of SALES going on. Heh heh. I know there are tons of offers going on in the face shop and the body shop, which are two of my most frequented shops but oh well. I'm trying to save money. Yet, it seems like too much of a temptation not to spend any of the money that I've earned from work. Not that it's a big amount, but still, it's enough to make me feel grateful I did work during the holidays. DATE ME FOR SHOPPING, ANYONE? I need to get some clothes, and I'm a total noob at that. Of course, my all time favourite skincare products as well. :D
Life is such a bore for me. It's either school, or work. Zzz. And now I need to go out for dinner. IT'S A ROUTINE. AND I HATE ROUTINES cos they are sian.
Zzz bye. What a random and boring entry. But I seriously dunno what to write.
Monday, December 8, 2008
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Work at Ichiban Sushi
Hello folks.
Today is a Tuesday and it feels great to know that there's no cca today. HAHA. Noob huh. I used to always kind of dread Tuesdays and Fridays cos of cca. LOL. Okay I'm a slacker XD
Tmr's the 3rd day of work. I've been doing the same thing for the first two days of work - being in charge of the bar. That means I'm the person in charge of drinks and desserts. I prepare the orders and serve them. It also means I'm a cleaner who cleans the cups LOL. Most of the time, I stay in the kitchen. I only go out to bring the clean cups out, or to refill the green tea. But yesterday, at 3 plus, when there wasn't much customers I could go out to talk to seniors and ask them to teach me more stuff. Well, the people there are generally quite nice and will tell you what you need to know. But I gotta say I don't know if its a lack of proper training or its meant to be this way, I felt that the people there didn't really tell me what I'm supposed to know. Like, they didn't really "teach" me what I'm supposed to know. I don't mean spoon feeding like telling me everything step by step, but I didn't even know what my job consist of as being the person in charge of the bar until one of the nice seniors told me yesterday. Well, now that I know I'll aim to do a better job, I certainly don't want to be seen as being slack by the others!
Hmm. Now that I think I more or less know what the person doing the bar is in charge of, I think I wanna try something else tmr. Or at least I hope I can do something new. I wanna learn and try to take orders or even clear the table! It sounds fun. Haha. I admit I'm still super not used to work yet, so I tend to worry about alot of things. Like how until now I'm still unable to wear the bloody uniform myself. (Don't laugh okay, it's not easy, trust me!) And I still worry about doing the desserts myself. I can't handle the ice cream! But oh well, I guess it'll get better as time goes by. But still! I hope I can do something new. : )
Alright, I think I will blog about work again some other time when I try out something new? There's really nothing much to talk about when I've only done the bar so far. Other than the fact that I got an order mixed up and sent it to the wrong table LOL. Luckily the customers didn't complain, and I didn't get a scolding from seniors either. LOL.
Working is really quite an experience. I strongly urge those who are free in the holidays to go find a job! It's better than rotting at home :)
I'll try to post a picture of me in work soon. I'll probably take a photo with Yuxuan in our uniforms or something, when we have the same shift. Otherwise, I'll definitely take a photo with the seniors when I leave! I think some of them are really nice so I hope I can become more familiar and get closer to them soon. =) Yay to me and yuxuan for work!
Today is a Tuesday and it feels great to know that there's no cca today. HAHA. Noob huh. I used to always kind of dread Tuesdays and Fridays cos of cca. LOL. Okay I'm a slacker XD
Tmr's the 3rd day of work. I've been doing the same thing for the first two days of work - being in charge of the bar. That means I'm the person in charge of drinks and desserts. I prepare the orders and serve them. It also means I'm a cleaner who cleans the cups LOL. Most of the time, I stay in the kitchen. I only go out to bring the clean cups out, or to refill the green tea. But yesterday, at 3 plus, when there wasn't much customers I could go out to talk to seniors and ask them to teach me more stuff. Well, the people there are generally quite nice and will tell you what you need to know. But I gotta say I don't know if its a lack of proper training or its meant to be this way, I felt that the people there didn't really tell me what I'm supposed to know. Like, they didn't really "teach" me what I'm supposed to know. I don't mean spoon feeding like telling me everything step by step, but I didn't even know what my job consist of as being the person in charge of the bar until one of the nice seniors told me yesterday. Well, now that I know I'll aim to do a better job, I certainly don't want to be seen as being slack by the others!
Hmm. Now that I think I more or less know what the person doing the bar is in charge of, I think I wanna try something else tmr. Or at least I hope I can do something new. I wanna learn and try to take orders or even clear the table! It sounds fun. Haha. I admit I'm still super not used to work yet, so I tend to worry about alot of things. Like how until now I'm still unable to wear the bloody uniform myself. (Don't laugh okay, it's not easy, trust me!) And I still worry about doing the desserts myself. I can't handle the ice cream! But oh well, I guess it'll get better as time goes by. But still! I hope I can do something new. : )
Alright, I think I will blog about work again some other time when I try out something new? There's really nothing much to talk about when I've only done the bar so far. Other than the fact that I got an order mixed up and sent it to the wrong table LOL. Luckily the customers didn't complain, and I didn't get a scolding from seniors either. LOL.
Working is really quite an experience. I strongly urge those who are free in the holidays to go find a job! It's better than rotting at home :)
I'll try to post a picture of me in work soon. I'll probably take a photo with Yuxuan in our uniforms or something, when we have the same shift. Otherwise, I'll definitely take a photo with the seniors when I leave! I think some of them are really nice so I hope I can become more familiar and get closer to them soon. =) Yay to me and yuxuan for work!
Friday, November 14, 2008
Regimes
I don't know how many of you out there have regimes for yourself. In my opinion, having a regime and sticking to it has to be the hardest thing to do yet!
Anyway, I'm about to go for a morning jog soon. The point of this entry is to state that I have failed, time and again, to have a strict exercise regime. Every night I lie in bed thinking how unfit I am, and then I'll go on to plan out the exercises I'm gonna do the next day, and make a promise to myself that I MUST MUST stick to that regime from the next day onwards. But when does that really happen? For starters, I'm not strict in exercising. I exercise (on my own) as and when I like it, and when I do, it may or may not be strenous, depending on my mood. Sometimes when I'm determined I can do alot of things, like 12 rounds round the stadium with my parents. But when I don't feel like running I can run as little as 6 rounds. LOL. Great difference huh.
I really look up to those people who have strict regimes for themselves. I once read from a magazine that Madonna has been keeping herself looking good all these years by following a strict diet and exercise regime. Wow! I guess it's not easy, especially when we get older. It's kind of sad actually, that whenever I go downstairs to run, I seldom see teenagers (except for the Ah Bengs playing basketball in the basketball court nearby) exercising. The people I meet are mostly aunties or uncles. Well, at least they're doing something to keep themselves healthy and fit huh.
There's so much I wanna do this holidays! Well, I'm gonna try to have an exercise regime, and it should not fail since I have all the time in the world in the holidays. I hope the weather will be fine though, so I can go for jogs. And then, I'm gonna try to have a newspaper reading regime. LOL. I know this sounds really dumb but ever since school ended I haven't been keeping in touch with any news at all. I'd better start reading again in preperation for CSC and GP next year!
Come to think of it, I think the regime that I'm closest to sticking to is skincare. LOL. Yeah, I mean who doesn't want good skin? especially when my skin is so sensitive I have to take extra time and care to take good care of it. But nobody's gonna look good with all the fats and untoned muscles. So yeah, I'm gonna try to throw in an exercise regime on top of that!
Okay, work starts tmr and today for yuxuan. I'm so excited! Shall blog about it tmr after the training. :D
Enough said for now, I'm gonna go run already!
Anyway, I'm about to go for a morning jog soon. The point of this entry is to state that I have failed, time and again, to have a strict exercise regime. Every night I lie in bed thinking how unfit I am, and then I'll go on to plan out the exercises I'm gonna do the next day, and make a promise to myself that I MUST MUST stick to that regime from the next day onwards. But when does that really happen? For starters, I'm not strict in exercising. I exercise (on my own) as and when I like it, and when I do, it may or may not be strenous, depending on my mood. Sometimes when I'm determined I can do alot of things, like 12 rounds round the stadium with my parents. But when I don't feel like running I can run as little as 6 rounds. LOL. Great difference huh.
I really look up to those people who have strict regimes for themselves. I once read from a magazine that Madonna has been keeping herself looking good all these years by following a strict diet and exercise regime. Wow! I guess it's not easy, especially when we get older. It's kind of sad actually, that whenever I go downstairs to run, I seldom see teenagers (except for the Ah Bengs playing basketball in the basketball court nearby) exercising. The people I meet are mostly aunties or uncles. Well, at least they're doing something to keep themselves healthy and fit huh.
There's so much I wanna do this holidays! Well, I'm gonna try to have an exercise regime, and it should not fail since I have all the time in the world in the holidays. I hope the weather will be fine though, so I can go for jogs. And then, I'm gonna try to have a newspaper reading regime. LOL. I know this sounds really dumb but ever since school ended I haven't been keeping in touch with any news at all. I'd better start reading again in preperation for CSC and GP next year!
Come to think of it, I think the regime that I'm closest to sticking to is skincare. LOL. Yeah, I mean who doesn't want good skin? especially when my skin is so sensitive I have to take extra time and care to take good care of it. But nobody's gonna look good with all the fats and untoned muscles. So yeah, I'm gonna try to throw in an exercise regime on top of that!
Okay, work starts tmr and today for yuxuan. I'm so excited! Shall blog about it tmr after the training. :D
Enough said for now, I'm gonna go run already!
Thursday, November 13, 2008
Back in action!
I am finally back to blogging.
Well I shall not update about what happened from the last time I blogged till when school ended. haha. Lets move on to what happened in the holidays instead.
I guess I must thank my two good friends, Peiying and Grace. We met up on a Sunday one week before school ended and they were talking about holiday plans when I had nothing at all in mind. They talked about stuff like working, doing what they liked, catching up on school work and basically just taking the time off for a long rest before we have to return to school again next year. At that time I confessed to being "aimless" as compared to them. I am someone who doesn't think much for myself. More often than not I just watch the day go by and lead a rather mundane life.
It wasn't till a week later that I suddenly felt the urge to try working. I don't have any working experience, other than giving out flyers for celine laoshi 2 years ago. Probably inspired by my two friends, it dawned on me that it was time I tried something I didn't do before. So I decided to go on a job hunt. I actually went to ask Mr Bean at the mrt station you know, since they were hiring! Haha. But too bad they were looking for long term workers so yeah, they don't wanna employ students on holiday.
Later that night celine laoshi approached me with a job offer of being a facilitator for a performing arts camp she's conducting the next day at Bukit View Seconday School (BVSS). Usually I wouldn't have accepted the job offer, since I'm usually the quiet type in camps myself. How then can I be a facil? But then at that point of time I was interested in finding a job and giving myself a new experience and challenge, so I accepted the job, not sure of what was gonna happen at all.
When I reached the school with the other facils and laoshi herself, I was still very worried. The rest were all guys and much older. They had many experiences being facils before. I was SO worried, especially when we first broke up into groups for icebreakers. It took a while for me to 'warm up' myself but I must say I did my best. During tea break everyone could sense that I was worried I think. It certainly didn't help that my group was quiet! It only made things worse for a noob like me.
Luckily after lunch things started getting better. The groups then proceeded to start preparing for their items for the competition at night. From then on time seemed to pass rather quickly. The competition was great, I must say. The items put up by all the students were so entertaining and everyone put in a great amount of effort.
It was at that competition that I realised something distinctively different about rv and other schools. I'm sure it isn't just BVSS, but probably many other schools as well. Throughout the whole camp I observed the students of BVSS. Though they ain't representative of the whole school, I guess it's still pretty safe to assume that they're more vocal and stuff since they all belong to the performing arts groups. Anyway, back to what I was saying. I am not being biased here, but I have to say that rv students are alot more daring and vocal. When saying something in front of everyone else, rv students in general have not much of a problem. The BVSS students in turn are alot more shy and they don't seem to have much to say when asked to say anything or contribute ideas. I have to give it to rv students for being better at this. However, sad to say, it is true that rv students are only smart in the head. Though the BVSS students may not be that affluent (purely based on what I observed), they definitely are more daring and energetic as compared to us rvians. The way they scream and support each other during the competition, how they are so enthusiastic throughout the whole camp, how they dare to perform solo in front of everyone although they do not know each other well...this all goes to show how shy and "dead" rvians can be. We are dead as ever during events like camps and we most certainly will never reach the same energy level as those students in BVSS. It's kind of sad actually. RVians don't know how to have fun. It's hard to put into words what I want to express, you have to be there to observe for yourself the difference.
Anyway, the day ended with everyone feeling shagged. Overall, the camp was quite an experience for me. Quite a few learning points and a fun experience of course. I must say that I am really sorry to the people in my group because many of them seemed quite bored. Probably its due to my lack of experience and all that I wasn't able to bring up the energy level in my group and make them really excited and high during the camp. But at least they won overall champion = ). At the end of it all we gave out the prizes and took photos. Here's a group photo. (I have no choice but to post this one and only photo I have so far although my eyes are closed, tyvm.)
Haha..and so that marks the end of the camp, and my 1st job during the holidays. I'm seriously quite hyped up about working now. It's really quite an eye opener and a rare experience. Of course, it kills time (who's not bored staying at home all day long?) and brings me some extra pocket money as well. Going to sakae sushi tmr to enquire about the job with yuxuan since they're employing. Hopefully we get employed! =)
Well I shall not update about what happened from the last time I blogged till when school ended. haha. Lets move on to what happened in the holidays instead.
I guess I must thank my two good friends, Peiying and Grace. We met up on a Sunday one week before school ended and they were talking about holiday plans when I had nothing at all in mind. They talked about stuff like working, doing what they liked, catching up on school work and basically just taking the time off for a long rest before we have to return to school again next year. At that time I confessed to being "aimless" as compared to them. I am someone who doesn't think much for myself. More often than not I just watch the day go by and lead a rather mundane life.
It wasn't till a week later that I suddenly felt the urge to try working. I don't have any working experience, other than giving out flyers for celine laoshi 2 years ago. Probably inspired by my two friends, it dawned on me that it was time I tried something I didn't do before. So I decided to go on a job hunt. I actually went to ask Mr Bean at the mrt station you know, since they were hiring! Haha. But too bad they were looking for long term workers so yeah, they don't wanna employ students on holiday.
Later that night celine laoshi approached me with a job offer of being a facilitator for a performing arts camp she's conducting the next day at Bukit View Seconday School (BVSS). Usually I wouldn't have accepted the job offer, since I'm usually the quiet type in camps myself. How then can I be a facil? But then at that point of time I was interested in finding a job and giving myself a new experience and challenge, so I accepted the job, not sure of what was gonna happen at all.
When I reached the school with the other facils and laoshi herself, I was still very worried. The rest were all guys and much older. They had many experiences being facils before. I was SO worried, especially when we first broke up into groups for icebreakers. It took a while for me to 'warm up' myself but I must say I did my best. During tea break everyone could sense that I was worried I think. It certainly didn't help that my group was quiet! It only made things worse for a noob like me.
Luckily after lunch things started getting better. The groups then proceeded to start preparing for their items for the competition at night. From then on time seemed to pass rather quickly. The competition was great, I must say. The items put up by all the students were so entertaining and everyone put in a great amount of effort.
It was at that competition that I realised something distinctively different about rv and other schools. I'm sure it isn't just BVSS, but probably many other schools as well. Throughout the whole camp I observed the students of BVSS. Though they ain't representative of the whole school, I guess it's still pretty safe to assume that they're more vocal and stuff since they all belong to the performing arts groups. Anyway, back to what I was saying. I am not being biased here, but I have to say that rv students are alot more daring and vocal. When saying something in front of everyone else, rv students in general have not much of a problem. The BVSS students in turn are alot more shy and they don't seem to have much to say when asked to say anything or contribute ideas. I have to give it to rv students for being better at this. However, sad to say, it is true that rv students are only smart in the head. Though the BVSS students may not be that affluent (purely based on what I observed), they definitely are more daring and energetic as compared to us rvians. The way they scream and support each other during the competition, how they are so enthusiastic throughout the whole camp, how they dare to perform solo in front of everyone although they do not know each other well...this all goes to show how shy and "dead" rvians can be. We are dead as ever during events like camps and we most certainly will never reach the same energy level as those students in BVSS. It's kind of sad actually. RVians don't know how to have fun. It's hard to put into words what I want to express, you have to be there to observe for yourself the difference.
Anyway, the day ended with everyone feeling shagged. Overall, the camp was quite an experience for me. Quite a few learning points and a fun experience of course. I must say that I am really sorry to the people in my group because many of them seemed quite bored. Probably its due to my lack of experience and all that I wasn't able to bring up the energy level in my group and make them really excited and high during the camp. But at least they won overall champion = ). At the end of it all we gave out the prizes and took photos. Here's a group photo. (I have no choice but to post this one and only photo I have so far although my eyes are closed, tyvm.)
Haha..and so that marks the end of the camp, and my 1st job during the holidays. I'm seriously quite hyped up about working now. It's really quite an eye opener and a rare experience. Of course, it kills time (who's not bored staying at home all day long?) and brings me some extra pocket money as well. Going to sakae sushi tmr to enquire about the job with yuxuan since they're employing. Hopefully we get employed! =)
Thursday, September 4, 2008
Holidays thus far
Don't know why I decided to blog suddenly this morning.
I must say that the holidays have ZOOMED past and before I know it, it's a friday already. Like wth, really. But I'm proud to say that this holiday is probably the only one in which I completely felt a sense of achievement because I'd been working either my body (dance) or brains out every day (mugging). Which means, I haven't been wasting much time and slacking away! Well I won't say that the holidays are productive, however, but at least I know I haven't been rotting my time away much.
A short summary of what had happened since last friday, teacher's day celebrations.
Friday (29th Aug) - Had teacher's day celebration in school (i of cos loved the two dance items the most) and then went off to plaza sing with grace and soo sien because peiying was knocked outta all her energy by then. hahah. Went to body shop fair, soosien got a cleanser and I was pissed that there wasn't anything I had in mind to buy. We went to yamaha next with soosien who bought a piano book for her lesson. She wanted to get another book with piano scores as well but we told her not to since she only wanted the scores for one particular song. LOL. In the end she was convinced and only got 1 book. Returned to the body shop fair because I was so angry I didn't get anything. Walked around once again and decided to get a cleanser for jooxiang as a teacher's day gift, and bought this extremely nice smelling cleanser + exfoliator for myself.
Saturday (30th Aug) - Woke up and my parents suggested to go to Wisma Atria for korean food! (the one at the foodcourt) The food was delicious! I loved the rice and the ginseng chicken soup! After which we went around to shop for a while before my dad drove me to Singapore Conference Hall for our school's CO performance. Well it's probably just me but I must say that I cant really appreciate CO music, although it didn't bore me to the extent that I felt like I was gonna fall asleep. I'm sorta just neutral for CO music. Haha. But what I want to complain about is the audience etiquette! Oh my goodness pls. There were so many ppl who were late and kept coming in during the intervals. And the attire of some ppl was like....-_-'. Erm, shorts? To a conference hall? Or even worse, I spotted a rv girl wearing the RV PE ATTIRE there. Gosh! I mean how hard is it for ppl to bring a set of clothes to change? If you ask me, even a casual jeans and shirt would be a better choice than wearing shorts and sleeveless shirts. You look like you're gonna go to sentosa or something. In a way, it's also kind of no respect for the performance rite? I've been to other performances at night, such as the EL performance, but everyone's dressing was still okay. Just because it's a performance in the afternoon doesn't mean ppl should just wear anything there rite? Aiyo!
Sunday (31st Aug) - Had brunch at a hawker centre near Queensway with my parents. The porridge was delicious! Then went around to Redhill market with them to buy some groceries. Afterwhich we went to Anchor Point which we'd never been to before. I was excited to see how the Disney Mickey Mouse restaurant was like, but when I saw it I was disappointed at how kiddy the whole place looked. Hello! They should probably set up part of the restaurant for the older consumers as well rite? Old alr cannot like mickey mouse meh? How they expect me to go in without feeling uncomfortable man! Grrr. Anyway, I went to Charles & Keith to look for a new bag..saw one that was pretty nice and bought it for $22.40. pretty cheap for a bag huh? That's quite 'branded' also larh...hahah! Went home aft that and not much happened..
Monday (1st Sep) - Continued to study about surds, indices and log in the morning. Had tuition after that. Am starting to get VERY worried about the eoys as I realise how much content I really have to cover. Damn. Monday was a boring day, mugging the whole day. Which reminds me, why is studying called mugging anyway? Is it because most people have a mug filled with drinks with them when they study? Haha! Then started studying abit of sec 3 bio also, went to sleep finally with extremely dry eyes.
Tuesday (2nd Sep) - Went for the US talk in the morning. It was generally okay I think. Was quite interested in knowing more about the courses available at the US after that haha. The instructors were very friendly as well. After that, I went to Vivo to have lunch with Yan Peng, along with yantong and judith whom we met at the bus stop. had pastamania. Went back to school for dance, was relatively okay as well other than the fact that it'd been so long since I went for a dance prac so I had a hard time stretching and splitting. There were new barres which kind of sucked for me because the height was as low as ever. Zzzz.
Wednesday (3rd Sep) - Went for part 2 of the US talk, and it was more useful than the 1st day's. The highlight of the day was none other than spotting the TSG at topshop with yanpeng at vivo. Well to keep a long story short, topshop was closed for a model photoshoot and there were many ang moh models standing outside the store waiting for it to be set up. There was one who was THE MOST SHUAI. yanpeng and I totally went crazy over him after that. We actually u-turned and walked back and forth just to see him! Best thing was when he walked past us to go to adidas...omg heart melt totally larh! Btw, he's called TSG (top shop guy) so the next time you guys hear about me talking about the TSG you know why. Wahahah.
Thursday (4th Sep) - The most tiring day of the holidays. Had bio in the morning from 8 - 11.45. Got back our test papers (happy I didn't fail..) and had lessons aft that. Went to Superdog (at Vivo again) for lunch before rushing back LIKE A NOOB in time for dance. Pai3 SYF and we got quite alot of new stuff to rmb. Got bruises once again as usual. After that went to Mildred's house to bathe and eat dinner. Thanks alot Mildred! Headed to Victoria Concert Hall aft that for a guang zhou concert...The concert was like boring lah. Was totally talking crap with haiwei. Haha. Throughout the concert I felt like dying cos of how suan1 my legs were and how my calf muscles were aching. Came home late at night..
Friday (5th Sep) - Haha! Woke up in the morning at 9.40...so shuang. First time I slept until so late in the holidays. Of course my body is aching as usual larh. Gonna leave home in about an hour's time to go to school for dance once again. Hopefully can finish pai3-ing SYF by today bah. I'm gonna have to come home to study aft that!
What a LONG entry.
I must say that the holidays have ZOOMED past and before I know it, it's a friday already. Like wth, really. But I'm proud to say that this holiday is probably the only one in which I completely felt a sense of achievement because I'd been working either my body (dance) or brains out every day (mugging). Which means, I haven't been wasting much time and slacking away! Well I won't say that the holidays are productive, however, but at least I know I haven't been rotting my time away much.
A short summary of what had happened since last friday, teacher's day celebrations.
Friday (29th Aug) - Had teacher's day celebration in school (i of cos loved the two dance items the most) and then went off to plaza sing with grace and soo sien because peiying was knocked outta all her energy by then. hahah. Went to body shop fair, soosien got a cleanser and I was pissed that there wasn't anything I had in mind to buy. We went to yamaha next with soosien who bought a piano book for her lesson. She wanted to get another book with piano scores as well but we told her not to since she only wanted the scores for one particular song. LOL. In the end she was convinced and only got 1 book. Returned to the body shop fair because I was so angry I didn't get anything. Walked around once again and decided to get a cleanser for jooxiang as a teacher's day gift, and bought this extremely nice smelling cleanser + exfoliator for myself.
Saturday (30th Aug) - Woke up and my parents suggested to go to Wisma Atria for korean food! (the one at the foodcourt) The food was delicious! I loved the rice and the ginseng chicken soup! After which we went around to shop for a while before my dad drove me to Singapore Conference Hall for our school's CO performance. Well it's probably just me but I must say that I cant really appreciate CO music, although it didn't bore me to the extent that I felt like I was gonna fall asleep. I'm sorta just neutral for CO music. Haha. But what I want to complain about is the audience etiquette! Oh my goodness pls. There were so many ppl who were late and kept coming in during the intervals. And the attire of some ppl was like....-_-'. Erm, shorts? To a conference hall? Or even worse, I spotted a rv girl wearing the RV PE ATTIRE there. Gosh! I mean how hard is it for ppl to bring a set of clothes to change? If you ask me, even a casual jeans and shirt would be a better choice than wearing shorts and sleeveless shirts. You look like you're gonna go to sentosa or something. In a way, it's also kind of no respect for the performance rite? I've been to other performances at night, such as the EL performance, but everyone's dressing was still okay. Just because it's a performance in the afternoon doesn't mean ppl should just wear anything there rite? Aiyo!
Sunday (31st Aug) - Had brunch at a hawker centre near Queensway with my parents. The porridge was delicious! Then went around to Redhill market with them to buy some groceries. Afterwhich we went to Anchor Point which we'd never been to before. I was excited to see how the Disney Mickey Mouse restaurant was like, but when I saw it I was disappointed at how kiddy the whole place looked. Hello! They should probably set up part of the restaurant for the older consumers as well rite? Old alr cannot like mickey mouse meh? How they expect me to go in without feeling uncomfortable man! Grrr. Anyway, I went to Charles & Keith to look for a new bag..saw one that was pretty nice and bought it for $22.40. pretty cheap for a bag huh? That's quite 'branded' also larh...hahah! Went home aft that and not much happened..
Monday (1st Sep) - Continued to study about surds, indices and log in the morning. Had tuition after that. Am starting to get VERY worried about the eoys as I realise how much content I really have to cover. Damn. Monday was a boring day, mugging the whole day. Which reminds me, why is studying called mugging anyway? Is it because most people have a mug filled with drinks with them when they study? Haha! Then started studying abit of sec 3 bio also, went to sleep finally with extremely dry eyes.
Tuesday (2nd Sep) - Went for the US talk in the morning. It was generally okay I think. Was quite interested in knowing more about the courses available at the US after that haha. The instructors were very friendly as well. After that, I went to Vivo to have lunch with Yan Peng, along with yantong and judith whom we met at the bus stop. had pastamania. Went back to school for dance, was relatively okay as well other than the fact that it'd been so long since I went for a dance prac so I had a hard time stretching and splitting. There were new barres which kind of sucked for me because the height was as low as ever. Zzzz.
Wednesday (3rd Sep) - Went for part 2 of the US talk, and it was more useful than the 1st day's. The highlight of the day was none other than spotting the TSG at topshop with yanpeng at vivo. Well to keep a long story short, topshop was closed for a model photoshoot and there were many ang moh models standing outside the store waiting for it to be set up. There was one who was THE MOST SHUAI. yanpeng and I totally went crazy over him after that. We actually u-turned and walked back and forth just to see him! Best thing was when he walked past us to go to adidas...omg heart melt totally larh! Btw, he's called TSG (top shop guy) so the next time you guys hear about me talking about the TSG you know why. Wahahah.
Thursday (4th Sep) - The most tiring day of the holidays. Had bio in the morning from 8 - 11.45. Got back our test papers (happy I didn't fail..) and had lessons aft that. Went to Superdog (at Vivo again) for lunch before rushing back LIKE A NOOB in time for dance. Pai3 SYF and we got quite alot of new stuff to rmb. Got bruises once again as usual. After that went to Mildred's house to bathe and eat dinner. Thanks alot Mildred! Headed to Victoria Concert Hall aft that for a guang zhou concert...The concert was like boring lah. Was totally talking crap with haiwei. Haha. Throughout the concert I felt like dying cos of how suan1 my legs were and how my calf muscles were aching. Came home late at night..
Friday (5th Sep) - Haha! Woke up in the morning at 9.40...so shuang. First time I slept until so late in the holidays. Of course my body is aching as usual larh. Gonna leave home in about an hour's time to go to school for dance once again. Hopefully can finish pai3-ing SYF by today bah. I'm gonna have to come home to study aft that!
What a LONG entry.
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
无言
Today's the end of CTs. Not quite act, there's still clit but its one week away so can slowly study...zzz. I seriously think I screwed up CTs. And the point is, I'm feeling worse because I screwed up the papers that I'm supposed to be more confident in. To be more precise, it's the humanities and language papers larh. But I think I totally screwed up this time. Not even lang arts which I often claim to be a giveaway paper cause no one would fail it. Zzzz. Oh well. At least those papers are the kind which you can't exactly prepare for, so the feeling of guilt is less.. in a way. Yep. Just keeping my fingers crossed for the results to be good.
Anyway, I've so many thoughts going on in my mind now...I shall blog about them in chinese bcos I think they can convey my feelings better.
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关于他的事，我感到无言。
一直以来，我认为自己非常了解他，但没想到，他真的变了。彻底的变了。我一直不敢相信，直到他亲口说出口，说他已感到自己变了，而且变成了一个连他自己都不知道是谁的人。
为什么才短短的两个多月，他会变了那么多呢？
逻辑性的分析能告诉任何人，这种变化其实是自然的，如他所说，这都是成长中的一部分。但我总认为，那不是真正的他。
他告诉我，不要再对他持有任何的感情，因为这只会伤害我自己。这我当然知道。但感情的事，有的时候真的不由得自己。
不过我想，是时候了。我这个人很奇怪，常常喜欢在朋友面前逞强，但其实心里根本没有那么坚强。为了我心爱的人，我能默默的忍受一切，只要看到他幸福，开心就好。但我想，过了昨天晚上的谈话后，我认为我已经没有必要再停留在之前的回忆里了。之前我认为，他不需要我，但他也不至于完全不把我放在眼里了吧？不过事实已证明，我不再需要欺骗自己，因为他真的已把我忘了。
现在的我，脑海里有很多复杂的想法。但唯一能肯定的是，我已经决定忘了他，忘了从前的事了。我不知道我需要多久的时间，不过我真的认为，我没有必要再为了他这种人而担心了。他爱怎么做，就怎么做吧。他说的对， 我没有必要管他，也没有权利再管他了。
既然他都那么说了，我还能怎样。我也真的不该那么傻了。
但实际点吧。我没他那么厉害，能够那么快又找到另外一个对象。究竟我需要多久的时间才能彻底走出那段21个月的共同回忆呢？
我不知道。但我心已定，这条路的旅程，已经开始了。
Anyway, I've so many thoughts going on in my mind now...I shall blog about them in chinese bcos I think they can convey my feelings better.
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关于他的事，我感到无言。
一直以来，我认为自己非常了解他，但没想到，他真的变了。彻底的变了。我一直不敢相信，直到他亲口说出口，说他已感到自己变了，而且变成了一个连他自己都不知道是谁的人。
为什么才短短的两个多月，他会变了那么多呢？
逻辑性的分析能告诉任何人，这种变化其实是自然的，如他所说，这都是成长中的一部分。但我总认为，那不是真正的他。
他告诉我，不要再对他持有任何的感情，因为这只会伤害我自己。这我当然知道。但感情的事，有的时候真的不由得自己。
不过我想，是时候了。我这个人很奇怪，常常喜欢在朋友面前逞强，但其实心里根本没有那么坚强。为了我心爱的人，我能默默的忍受一切，只要看到他幸福，开心就好。但我想，过了昨天晚上的谈话后，我认为我已经没有必要再停留在之前的回忆里了。之前我认为，他不需要我，但他也不至于完全不把我放在眼里了吧？不过事实已证明，我不再需要欺骗自己，因为他真的已把我忘了。
现在的我，脑海里有很多复杂的想法。但唯一能肯定的是，我已经决定忘了他，忘了从前的事了。我不知道我需要多久的时间，不过我真的认为，我没有必要再为了他这种人而担心了。他爱怎么做，就怎么做吧。他说的对， 我没有必要管他，也没有权利再管他了。
既然他都那么说了，我还能怎样。我也真的不该那么傻了。
但实际点吧。我没他那么厉害，能够那么快又找到另外一个对象。究竟我需要多久的时间才能彻底走出那段21个月的共同回忆呢？
我不知道。但我心已定，这条路的旅程，已经开始了。
Sunday, August 3, 2008
Pia for CTs!
Omg I just finished math ws 3e. Though my tutor just went through it I had a hard time doing qn 6.
I'm like seriously stressed up over CTs. There's so much to study, and so little time. Not to mention I'm dead tired. This week's gonna be busy again, returning home late almost every day. At times like these I find CCA irritating cos it takes up our time for studying. Don't get me wrong, it's not that I don't like CCA but I obviously need more time for revision. My results ain't good, afterall. Some might argue that even if there's no CCA, we wouldn't use that time for studying anyway. That's true, but at least it can be time used for resting. I'm the kind who gets very stressed up when I know that there's alot for me to do but no time and energy. Oh man. At least we can put aside CID for now. Or so I hope.
Yesterday was quite a happy day for me though it was tiring. Woke up earlier than school day (by only 5 mins actually) and travelled down to Bradell with dancers for cip. After which I returned home and got ready to go out. Met Peiying at Clarke Quay MRT before going to shop for gifts for Grace to support her performance. Later, we took the bus down and along with a bunch of other rvians, couldn't find our way to DBS Arts centre. So we were kinda late and ended up running to the place. I was running in heels! Then had blisters, : (. Peiying said I was the representative for being able to endure pain. haha.
The production itself was great! The crew did a great job at acting out the emotions of the enraged animals, determined to bring about some changes for themselves. However, I personally find it more interesting and exciting to go for a production which we don't know the story beforehand so that there's this feeling of suspense. I thought the production was great on the whole, but that feeling of suspense was lacking cos there wasn't really much difference from the original story. Nevertheless, it was a great job! I was amazed by the performance of certain characters.. eg Ariel did a great job for Napoleon's role. Of course, many others, not forgetting our beloved friend Grace whom we where there to support, did a fantastic job as well! Congrats ELDDS!
After the play Peiying and I wanted to go to starbucks for a drink..initially we stopped by the outlet close to DBS arts centre. I found it quite weird that there wasn't my favourite range of Frappe to be found on the menu, so I told her maybe that outlet was smaller and didn't have all the flavours available. So we decided to head down to Liang Court which we were at earlier to buy Grace's gifts. Unfortunately, it was packed and there weren't seats for us. AND we found the menu to be exactly the same as the outlet earlier, which was much emptier. I was feeling so sorry. Haha. (I still think that those 2 outlets might not have the complete menu. I mean, frappe just disappeared? Thats weird.) So we settled for McCafe instead. Oh btw, I forgot to mention we saw Leon at subway's cashier when we were trying to find seats at starbucks. haha. random.
Had Mocha Frappe at McCafe and Peiying had Double Chocolate Frappe. Not bad if you ask me. I thought it was pretty good for $4.70. Starbucks would've been about close to 7 bucks if I'd bought the same thing. Okay, I admit starbucks would've tasted better but McCafe's is good enough alr, for that price. So you guys might wanna try it sometime. I don't mind going there if I'm on a tighter budget but feel like having some quality ice blended caffeine : D
Talked to Peiying until about 11 before heading back to the MRT to go home. Seemed like quite a short chat, when actually it lasted for about an hour. I guess we have simply too much to catch up on since we haven't met for so long. More gatherings pls! I don't mind meeting up just for a few hours on weekends..the feeling of reminiscing with old pals is fantastic : )
Alright, I'd better go back to studying for the upcoming math quiz on Wed. Didn't take many pics so I won't bother posting them up. Jiayou everyone for CTs! It's time to pia all over again like we did for mid years. Oh bother.
Nvm, I must tell myself : I can do it! And the same goes out to all of u!
I'm like seriously stressed up over CTs. There's so much to study, and so little time. Not to mention I'm dead tired. This week's gonna be busy again, returning home late almost every day. At times like these I find CCA irritating cos it takes up our time for studying. Don't get me wrong, it's not that I don't like CCA but I obviously need more time for revision. My results ain't good, afterall. Some might argue that even if there's no CCA, we wouldn't use that time for studying anyway. That's true, but at least it can be time used for resting. I'm the kind who gets very stressed up when I know that there's alot for me to do but no time and energy. Oh man. At least we can put aside CID for now. Or so I hope.
Yesterday was quite a happy day for me though it was tiring. Woke up earlier than school day (by only 5 mins actually) and travelled down to Bradell with dancers for cip. After which I returned home and got ready to go out. Met Peiying at Clarke Quay MRT before going to shop for gifts for Grace to support her performance. Later, we took the bus down and along with a bunch of other rvians, couldn't find our way to DBS Arts centre. So we were kinda late and ended up running to the place. I was running in heels! Then had blisters, : (. Peiying said I was the representative for being able to endure pain. haha.
The production itself was great! The crew did a great job at acting out the emotions of the enraged animals, determined to bring about some changes for themselves. However, I personally find it more interesting and exciting to go for a production which we don't know the story beforehand so that there's this feeling of suspense. I thought the production was great on the whole, but that feeling of suspense was lacking cos there wasn't really much difference from the original story. Nevertheless, it was a great job! I was amazed by the performance of certain characters.. eg Ariel did a great job for Napoleon's role. Of course, many others, not forgetting our beloved friend Grace whom we where there to support, did a fantastic job as well! Congrats ELDDS!
After the play Peiying and I wanted to go to starbucks for a drink..initially we stopped by the outlet close to DBS arts centre. I found it quite weird that there wasn't my favourite range of Frappe to be found on the menu, so I told her maybe that outlet was smaller and didn't have all the flavours available. So we decided to head down to Liang Court which we were at earlier to buy Grace's gifts. Unfortunately, it was packed and there weren't seats for us. AND we found the menu to be exactly the same as the outlet earlier, which was much emptier. I was feeling so sorry. Haha. (I still think that those 2 outlets might not have the complete menu. I mean, frappe just disappeared? Thats weird.) So we settled for McCafe instead. Oh btw, I forgot to mention we saw Leon at subway's cashier when we were trying to find seats at starbucks. haha. random.
Had Mocha Frappe at McCafe and Peiying had Double Chocolate Frappe. Not bad if you ask me. I thought it was pretty good for $4.70. Starbucks would've been about close to 7 bucks if I'd bought the same thing. Okay, I admit starbucks would've tasted better but McCafe's is good enough alr, for that price. So you guys might wanna try it sometime. I don't mind going there if I'm on a tighter budget but feel like having some quality ice blended caffeine : D
Talked to Peiying until about 11 before heading back to the MRT to go home. Seemed like quite a short chat, when actually it lasted for about an hour. I guess we have simply too much to catch up on since we haven't met for so long. More gatherings pls! I don't mind meeting up just for a few hours on weekends..the feeling of reminiscing with old pals is fantastic : )
Alright, I'd better go back to studying for the upcoming math quiz on Wed. Didn't take many pics so I won't bother posting them up. Jiayou everyone for CTs! It's time to pia all over again like we did for mid years. Oh bother.
Nvm, I must tell myself : I can do it! And the same goes out to all of u!
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Zzz....attempt to sleep earlier.
Gosh..I'm so tired these days!
I've just finished the more important part of the conclusion of our CID report. Grrr. I hate irresponsibility. Lol. I shall not bother to say anything more about it. It only makes our blood boil.
Anyway, talking to Yu Xuan only reminded me of him even more. I know, I've decided to forget him but it ain't gonna be that easy right? I mean yarh. Obviously. Maybe I really need to give myself more time. But who knows, it's been 2 months plus, in fact maybe even 3 months, but still I'm unable to put him down. Oh well. I'm not feeling that emo now so I shall not write more lest I become more emo again. Haha. I think I'm not as emo as last week liao. Good thing? : )
Ok ok I know I'm slacking but simply can't help it man. I almost died in all of the lessons today. Was totally struggling to keep myself awake. But I always have this problem of sleeping early at night. I always feel that it's too early to sleep and so I'm not used to it, no matter how tired I may be. Totally bad habit man.
Alright since I don't know what else to blog I shall go off and attempt to sleep earlier tonight. Haha.
I've just finished the more important part of the conclusion of our CID report. Grrr. I hate irresponsibility. Lol. I shall not bother to say anything more about it. It only makes our blood boil.
Anyway, talking to Yu Xuan only reminded me of him even more. I know, I've decided to forget him but it ain't gonna be that easy right? I mean yarh. Obviously. Maybe I really need to give myself more time. But who knows, it's been 2 months plus, in fact maybe even 3 months, but still I'm unable to put him down. Oh well. I'm not feeling that emo now so I shall not write more lest I become more emo again. Haha. I think I'm not as emo as last week liao. Good thing? : )
Ok ok I know I'm slacking but simply can't help it man. I almost died in all of the lessons today. Was totally struggling to keep myself awake. But I always have this problem of sleeping early at night. I always feel that it's too early to sleep and so I'm not used to it, no matter how tired I may be. Totally bad habit man.
Alright since I don't know what else to blog I shall go off and attempt to sleep earlier tonight. Haha.
Saturday, July 26, 2008
A light entry to start it off all over again..
Right now I'm waiting for the modem people to come to fix the new modem...so I might have to leave anytime.
Thus, I've decided to write a rather light entry since I don't have much time.
Okay I know I'm finally blogging after months, and I don't think many ppl even know of this new URL. Well that's probably not a bad thing anyway, can write more personal stuff haha.
Yesterday we had this talk as part of our E&C week. I found the talk rather inspirational and motivating. It got me having quite a wild idea of starting/initiating some kind of voluntary work for animals. I mean, not many people care about animals and people might probably argue that human should receive more attention than animals, but that's precisely the whole point. Not many people are as "weird" or "crazy" as me (like how some might choose to see it), so I guess it's important that they're people out there who wish to do some form of voluntary work for animals as well. Afterall, its us humans who continually destory their habitat or hunt them. That's very shameful for us and so, it's essential to raise awareness to protect the animals!
Haha okay that's just a wild idea and I don't think I'd start anything larh, but seriously I love animals so much!
Grr okay I better sign off now, will be back very soon to jot down my thoughts. Been having too many of them recently, and I think I'm going mad.
Thus, I've decided to write a rather light entry since I don't have much time.
Okay I know I'm finally blogging after months, and I don't think many ppl even know of this new URL. Well that's probably not a bad thing anyway, can write more personal stuff haha.
Yesterday we had this talk as part of our E&C week. I found the talk rather inspirational and motivating. It got me having quite a wild idea of starting/initiating some kind of voluntary work for animals. I mean, not many people care about animals and people might probably argue that human should receive more attention than animals, but that's precisely the whole point. Not many people are as "weird" or "crazy" as me (like how some might choose to see it), so I guess it's important that they're people out there who wish to do some form of voluntary work for animals as well. Afterall, its us humans who continually destory their habitat or hunt them. That's very shameful for us and so, it's essential to raise awareness to protect the animals!
Haha okay that's just a wild idea and I don't think I'd start anything larh, but seriously I love animals so much!
Grr okay I better sign off now, will be back very soon to jot down my thoughts. Been having too many of them recently, and I think I'm going mad.
Saturday, March 1, 2008
Omg omg this has got to be the worst fact ever.
I just calculated my gpa for all the subjects we got back so far and its a freaking........3.1.
WHICH COULD HAVE BEEN A GPA OF 3.5 IF I HAVEN'T GOT A FUCKING C6 FOR MY LANG ARTS AND GOTTEN MY USUAL A2. And all for that just because I wrote my answer from paragraph 5 instead of paragraph 4. The qn was easy and I reckon I could've gotten at least 2 - 3 marks more, if I had written from the correct paragraph. And like 1 mark from the test is act 6.6 marks, which means a grade. Wow. Even getting 2 marks more means at least a B3 for me, which is alr considered disappointing since I've always gotten confirmed A2's at least for lang arts. Damn it, why why why? Why screw up lang arts when it's so bloody easy?!
And if things weren't bad enough I estimated my S.S to be B4 (hopefully I can even get that mark), and both my math and bio to be F9 (expected for math, but this time's bio test isn't even enough for me to scrape through with a C6 or at least a pathetic D7...), and my GPA for term 1 is.......................................................2.25.
Pathetic, thank you very much. Term 1 has just shot past and I dunno wth I've been doing so far. Gosh, how do I fucking hit a gpa of 3 to promote?!
I think I'm like stupid and I shouldn't even be in RV. I'd even have difficulty passing math if I was taking O levels. How the heck am I gonna survive man.
Thank you very much, if the ________ bombs up boon lay mrt I should probably hope that I'm there so I won't have to worry about getting a gpa of 3. And why can't I just drop math and bio so my gpa will be good man. This SUCKS!!! Definitely one science and 3 humans combi for me next year man. At least I won't be this pathetic trying to compress all my brain cells to make space to squeeze all those math and bio shit into my brain. I'm bound to be an arts student. Zzzzzz.
I just calculated my gpa for all the subjects we got back so far and its a freaking........3.1.
WHICH COULD HAVE BEEN A GPA OF 3.5 IF I HAVEN'T GOT A FUCKING C6 FOR MY LANG ARTS AND GOTTEN MY USUAL A2. And all for that just because I wrote my answer from paragraph 5 instead of paragraph 4. The qn was easy and I reckon I could've gotten at least 2 - 3 marks more, if I had written from the correct paragraph. And like 1 mark from the test is act 6.6 marks, which means a grade. Wow. Even getting 2 marks more means at least a B3 for me, which is alr considered disappointing since I've always gotten confirmed A2's at least for lang arts. Damn it, why why why? Why screw up lang arts when it's so bloody easy?!
And if things weren't bad enough I estimated my S.S to be B4 (hopefully I can even get that mark), and both my math and bio to be F9 (expected for math, but this time's bio test isn't even enough for me to scrape through with a C6 or at least a pathetic D7...), and my GPA for term 1 is.......................................................2.25.
Pathetic, thank you very much. Term 1 has just shot past and I dunno wth I've been doing so far. Gosh, how do I fucking hit a gpa of 3 to promote?!
I think I'm like stupid and I shouldn't even be in RV. I'd even have difficulty passing math if I was taking O levels. How the heck am I gonna survive man.
Thank you very much, if the ________ bombs up boon lay mrt I should probably hope that I'm there so I won't have to worry about getting a gpa of 3. And why can't I just drop math and bio so my gpa will be good man. This SUCKS!!! Definitely one science and 3 humans combi for me next year man. At least I won't be this pathetic trying to compress all my brain cells to make space to squeeze all those math and bio shit into my brain. I'm bound to be an arts student. Zzzzzz.
Friday, February 1, 2008
These few days,or rather weeks, have been super tiring and both physically and mentally exhausting.
To be honest, I wasn't the least bit happy about the math test yesterday. Although I knew I would fail even before the test, I was hoping that hopefully, I'd be able to score a little better since I know I can say for sure that at least I understand the current topic more than the previous ones that we learned in sec 3, where I totally didn't catch a thing. Even though many others said that the test was easy, I thought it was still very difficult. Utter disappointment was all that I felt after the test, when I heard others discussing about the questions and even saying that some were "give-away questions". Heck. I couldn't even answer one whole question. At least I know for sure that this year, I really did try to put in more effort in studying something that I totally had no hope for last year. I paid full attention in class, and tried all the homework for myself before I even copied other ppl's work when I realy didn't have any idea how to do them. I know that I can't expect much when my foundation is so poor, but still...can't help but say that I feel disappointed.
For clit we've been learning about 论语,which I feel makes alot of sense and can be applied to our lives. Many things happens everyday and I try to observe what my peers around me behave like and indeed, I must say that what su lao shi tells us all the time is true. He said that youngsters nowdays are 自私，自我，and 自大. Look at the things that happen to you everyday. How many of us have always blamed the school whenever something happens? Like getting caught for your attire every day. Sure, it is understandable if your mood turns bad when you get caught for your attire, but heck, have you ever questioned yourself if you'd done anything wrong in the first place? Attire-wise, we have no say because it is a school rule. You may choose to think that you have the rights to wear your uniform the way you want because it is trendy, or that you think you don't look good if you don't 'break the rules'. But come on, when you get caught by almost every teacher, you're the one who won't feel good, and you can't blame anyone if they keep picking on you. In the first place, if you didn't want that to happen, then don't make it so obvious that you're breaking the rules. I'm not trying to be pc here, but looking at how many people react towards this issue just makes you stop to think and reflect on why they are behaving like that. Cursing and swearing at the teachers when they were the ones who were at fault in the first place?
Hmm I still have many other thoughts in mind, but I don't really feel like blogging anymore. I've got to go for horizon soon so yeah, till I feel like blogging the next time. Ta-ta.
To be honest, I wasn't the least bit happy about the math test yesterday. Although I knew I would fail even before the test, I was hoping that hopefully, I'd be able to score a little better since I know I can say for sure that at least I understand the current topic more than the previous ones that we learned in sec 3, where I totally didn't catch a thing. Even though many others said that the test was easy, I thought it was still very difficult. Utter disappointment was all that I felt after the test, when I heard others discussing about the questions and even saying that some were "give-away questions". Heck. I couldn't even answer one whole question. At least I know for sure that this year, I really did try to put in more effort in studying something that I totally had no hope for last year. I paid full attention in class, and tried all the homework for myself before I even copied other ppl's work when I realy didn't have any idea how to do them. I know that I can't expect much when my foundation is so poor, but still...can't help but say that I feel disappointed.
For clit we've been learning about 论语,which I feel makes alot of sense and can be applied to our lives. Many things happens everyday and I try to observe what my peers around me behave like and indeed, I must say that what su lao shi tells us all the time is true. He said that youngsters nowdays are 自私，自我，and 自大. Look at the things that happen to you everyday. How many of us have always blamed the school whenever something happens? Like getting caught for your attire every day. Sure, it is understandable if your mood turns bad when you get caught for your attire, but heck, have you ever questioned yourself if you'd done anything wrong in the first place? Attire-wise, we have no say because it is a school rule. You may choose to think that you have the rights to wear your uniform the way you want because it is trendy, or that you think you don't look good if you don't 'break the rules'. But come on, when you get caught by almost every teacher, you're the one who won't feel good, and you can't blame anyone if they keep picking on you. In the first place, if you didn't want that to happen, then don't make it so obvious that you're breaking the rules. I'm not trying to be pc here, but looking at how many people react towards this issue just makes you stop to think and reflect on why they are behaving like that. Cursing and swearing at the teachers when they were the ones who were at fault in the first place?
Hmm I still have many other thoughts in mind, but I don't really feel like blogging anymore. I've got to go for horizon soon so yeah, till I feel like blogging the next time. Ta-ta.
Saturday, January 5, 2008
I don't really wish to say this, but somehow, I can't help but feel pretty down these days. Not that much to say that I'm emo (gosh I can't believe I'm using that word man) though. It's just...feeling kind of sian and down.
I didn't have a problem with her when I was in primary school. Back then, I felt that she was giving me more freedom than compared to my friends. I was always allowed to go out. There wasn't a time where she said no. On the other hand, my friends always had the problem where their parents didn't allow them to even go to each other's houses. Back then, I was happy with the amount of freedom that I had. Heck, I even got my first handphone at the age of 10. That was the amount of freedom I had.
But now, I still have the same amount of freedom I once had at the age of 10. The amount of freedom I have now is so little compared to all my peers. I used to laugh at the nerds/bookworms/pia kias for not having a life. Looking at how I am living my life now, I realise I'm not any better compared to them.
I have no idea why, but lately it has occured to me that she can be v controlling. I'm not allowed to go out when I request to. She says no to most of the things so I might as well not ask at all. In fact, I used to share everything with her. Everything. Now, I don't even feel like talking much to her. I don't want that to happen though. I hate it when I hear of other ppl having bad relationships with their parents. I can't believe that this is happening to me too.
I don't wanna talk back to her, though I really feel like it at times. I walk around the shopping mall alone even when I'm out with my parents. They enter shops that I'm not at all interested in. Like G2000 and jewellery shops. There's nothing for me to look at there. I am super sian-ed whenever they go into such shops. When I walk into one that I feel like going into, she refuses to go in with me. She feels that I'm about to spend money that is unecessary. She feels that I do not know what is worth buying. She feels that she is not interested in what I'm interested in, so she might as well stay outside the store. I enter shops that are not of their interest, so they'd rather stay outside. When I find something that catches my eye, I turn back to see if they're around to tell them about it. Everytime I'm excited over something, wanting to share with them, they're not there most of the time. Or she'd frown and say no. Such that whenever they ask me if I wanna buy anything, I'd choose to say no. I hate the feeling of being rejected when I request to buy something. And it's not like the things that I buy are that expensive. I don't know...maybe others reading this right now might feel that I'm just being materialistic. But the truth is, I'm not. I'd rather go shopping with her just like any other mum and daughter would, trying on clothes/shoes together, looking at bags and stuff together. It actually hurts me whenever I look at such a common scence in the shopping mall. Because I know I'd never have that experience.
I am nagged at when I wish to go shopping for clothes. When I try them on, she puts me down with her comments by saying that I don't have the tiao jian to wear such clothes. I don't look nice in it. She feels I should just go out with a simple tee shirt and long pants, since I dont have the tiao jian to wear shorter pants. When I knew that I had lost 2.4 kg, I came home excitedly to tell her that I couldn't believe I was so fat last year and that I was happy to shed off that amount of weight. She looked at me and said, "then now u think u not fat meh?"
I'm losing everything. I'm losing the freedom that I once enjoyed in my childhood. I'm losing the enjoyment of going out with them on Saturday nights, which I once enjoyed. I'm losing the thought of having a wishlist, because I know she'd most probably say no. I'm losing the happiness of having her around to accompany me. I'm losing the care and concern that I should have from her. I'm losing the rights of how a child should be pampered ocassionally by their parents. Most importantly, I'm worried that if this continues, I would gradually lose my love for her.
I know I'm not a good daughter but surely..it wouldnt hurt to say something to make me happy once in a while? For once, to stop saying that whatever I want to buy means wasting money, for once, to not put me down with comments like I'm fat or dun have nice legs, even though I know I don't. For once, to stop telling me to do housework on Saturdays which are so precious to us students to rest.
For the first time, I feel like I'm being controlled. Where is the freedom I once enjoyed when I was young? Maybe this is the reason that drives me to work harder this year. Working harder would give me an excuse not to have to talk to her. Study more, because that keeps me busy and away from such thoughts. Exercise more, because I am fat and I don't look good. Do more housework, iron my own uniform every week, clean my own room, mop the floor and clean the computer, even though she's a housewife. Don't get me wrong, it's not that I'm spoiled and unwilling to help out. It's the feeling that even your own mum doesn't understand how tired you are, to let u rest and be rid of such chores that hurts. Haven't tried that, have you? To have a mum who doesn't understand and all.
I won't be surprised if I get more and more down these days. Probably in the next entry I'd say that I'm emo already. I really...don't know. I wasn't prepared for this day. I never thought it would come. But it has.
I didn't have a problem with her when I was in primary school. Back then, I felt that she was giving me more freedom than compared to my friends. I was always allowed to go out. There wasn't a time where she said no. On the other hand, my friends always had the problem where their parents didn't allow them to even go to each other's houses. Back then, I was happy with the amount of freedom that I had. Heck, I even got my first handphone at the age of 10. That was the amount of freedom I had.
But now, I still have the same amount of freedom I once had at the age of 10. The amount of freedom I have now is so little compared to all my peers. I used to laugh at the nerds/bookworms/pia kias for not having a life. Looking at how I am living my life now, I realise I'm not any better compared to them.
I have no idea why, but lately it has occured to me that she can be v controlling. I'm not allowed to go out when I request to. She says no to most of the things so I might as well not ask at all. In fact, I used to share everything with her. Everything. Now, I don't even feel like talking much to her. I don't want that to happen though. I hate it when I hear of other ppl having bad relationships with their parents. I can't believe that this is happening to me too.
I don't wanna talk back to her, though I really feel like it at times. I walk around the shopping mall alone even when I'm out with my parents. They enter shops that I'm not at all interested in. Like G2000 and jewellery shops. There's nothing for me to look at there. I am super sian-ed whenever they go into such shops. When I walk into one that I feel like going into, she refuses to go in with me. She feels that I'm about to spend money that is unecessary. She feels that I do not know what is worth buying. She feels that she is not interested in what I'm interested in, so she might as well stay outside the store. I enter shops that are not of their interest, so they'd rather stay outside. When I find something that catches my eye, I turn back to see if they're around to tell them about it. Everytime I'm excited over something, wanting to share with them, they're not there most of the time. Or she'd frown and say no. Such that whenever they ask me if I wanna buy anything, I'd choose to say no. I hate the feeling of being rejected when I request to buy something. And it's not like the things that I buy are that expensive. I don't know...maybe others reading this right now might feel that I'm just being materialistic. But the truth is, I'm not. I'd rather go shopping with her just like any other mum and daughter would, trying on clothes/shoes together, looking at bags and stuff together. It actually hurts me whenever I look at such a common scence in the shopping mall. Because I know I'd never have that experience.
I am nagged at when I wish to go shopping for clothes. When I try them on, she puts me down with her comments by saying that I don't have the tiao jian to wear such clothes. I don't look nice in it. She feels I should just go out with a simple tee shirt and long pants, since I dont have the tiao jian to wear shorter pants. When I knew that I had lost 2.4 kg, I came home excitedly to tell her that I couldn't believe I was so fat last year and that I was happy to shed off that amount of weight. She looked at me and said, "then now u think u not fat meh?"
I'm losing everything. I'm losing the freedom that I once enjoyed in my childhood. I'm losing the enjoyment of going out with them on Saturday nights, which I once enjoyed. I'm losing the thought of having a wishlist, because I know she'd most probably say no. I'm losing the happiness of having her around to accompany me. I'm losing the care and concern that I should have from her. I'm losing the rights of how a child should be pampered ocassionally by their parents. Most importantly, I'm worried that if this continues, I would gradually lose my love for her.
I know I'm not a good daughter but surely..it wouldnt hurt to say something to make me happy once in a while? For once, to stop saying that whatever I want to buy means wasting money, for once, to not put me down with comments like I'm fat or dun have nice legs, even though I know I don't. For once, to stop telling me to do housework on Saturdays which are so precious to us students to rest.
For the first time, I feel like I'm being controlled. Where is the freedom I once enjoyed when I was young? Maybe this is the reason that drives me to work harder this year. Working harder would give me an excuse not to have to talk to her. Study more, because that keeps me busy and away from such thoughts. Exercise more, because I am fat and I don't look good. Do more housework, iron my own uniform every week, clean my own room, mop the floor and clean the computer, even though she's a housewife. Don't get me wrong, it's not that I'm spoiled and unwilling to help out. It's the feeling that even your own mum doesn't understand how tired you are, to let u rest and be rid of such chores that hurts. Haven't tried that, have you? To have a mum who doesn't understand and all.
I won't be surprised if I get more and more down these days. Probably in the next entry I'd say that I'm emo already. I really...don't know. I wasn't prepared for this day. I never thought it would come. But it has.
Friday, January 4, 2008
Yo ppl. (Yo ho yo ho the pirate's life for me)
It's a fine Saturday morning and I just came back from a morning run. Woke up at about 840, then I decided to go running. I had wanted to go running all holiday, but I didn't! Perhaps it was cos of pe lesson yesterday? Tan made us run two rounds and while I was running I realised my stamina had went down alot, but nevertheless I love the feeling of having sweat all over after you finish running. That means CALORIES BURNT! Wahaha! Anyway, it may be due to that, or it may be due to yesterday's height and weight measurement. Okay i didn't grow any taller so you girls out there can stop cursing, but I did slim down! By 2.4 kg! That's quite alot to me! I didn't even think that I had slimmed down at all. Haha. So, I wanted to keep it up till I met my target weight. Initially (when I hadn't lost any weight), my goal was to shed off 5.6kg. Now, I'm 3.2 kg away from it! AHHH! Better work harder.
As a start I'm eating lesser than I used to. It kind of works I guess because although I did feel a bit hungry in the holidays, I soon got used to it and my appetite has really became smaller. So I eat alot less now but yet I don't really feel hungry. That's good news!
Btw, my BMI is a freaking 18.4! It used to be 16+ okay!
Ok ok I better stop talking about my weight.
So far, we've had two days of lessons and yet I'm already feeling the pressure. Ok, half of the pressure is caused by myself because I didn't complete my holiday homework so I'm chiong-ing now. Nevertheless, I'm sure everybody can already sense the pressure and all that's coming up. For a start, my class is super suay because I've asked around and even classes like 4J whose timetable ended about the same time as us last year gets to go home early this year! (Their latest release time is 2+!) Even 4A doesn't have to stay back as late as us! (Even though I think they would on their own accord) Anyway, my class has to stay till 5pm on every Thurs for bicultural! That sucks! Rah!
On Thurs which was the first day of actual lessons, I pia-ed home and reached at about 6pm. Then, I went on to shower and eat my dinner and continued to pia the overdue and new homework. Piaed till about 11, slept at 1130. But I must say that I've proven to myself that I'm able to pia homework as well if I wish to. Completed quite alot of work in that few hours.
I don't have any new year resolutions this year but I am definitely going to push myself harder. Last year's GPA was not good at all, it was only a borderline pass! Definitely have to work harder man, for subjects like Math and Bio. Which I'm extremely weak in. Hmm. But I think for subjects like Clit, Geog and Bicultural, I hope to be able to use them to pull my grades up. Though they weren't that bad last year, I defintely didn't push myself to the max. This year I hope to be able to!
So I've got to pia more and stop getting distracted by the stupid computer. Hmm. The feeling of pia-ing is tiring but it also gives you a sense of achievement because you know your time was spent wisely. It's like making your days very chong1 shi3. Have to work harder! And stop feeling so tired all the time.
Another important point to note is that I've to prevent myself from falling sick all the time! I know I have an extremely weak body because I fall sick ever so often. So I've to try to make myself healthier!
Hmm, that's it I guess. Nothing much to blog already. Haha. Except that I'm still pretty not used to the new uniform. It's like so ACJC pls! Rah. RV is still the same. Nothing much to say le..bye!
It's a fine Saturday morning and I just came back from a morning run. Woke up at about 840, then I decided to go running. I had wanted to go running all holiday, but I didn't! Perhaps it was cos of pe lesson yesterday? Tan made us run two rounds and while I was running I realised my stamina had went down alot, but nevertheless I love the feeling of having sweat all over after you finish running. That means CALORIES BURNT! Wahaha! Anyway, it may be due to that, or it may be due to yesterday's height and weight measurement. Okay i didn't grow any taller so you girls out there can stop cursing, but I did slim down! By 2.4 kg! That's quite alot to me! I didn't even think that I had slimmed down at all. Haha. So, I wanted to keep it up till I met my target weight. Initially (when I hadn't lost any weight), my goal was to shed off 5.6kg. Now, I'm 3.2 kg away from it! AHHH! Better work harder.
As a start I'm eating lesser than I used to. It kind of works I guess because although I did feel a bit hungry in the holidays, I soon got used to it and my appetite has really became smaller. So I eat alot less now but yet I don't really feel hungry. That's good news!
Btw, my BMI is a freaking 18.4! It used to be 16+ okay!
Ok ok I better stop talking about my weight.
So far, we've had two days of lessons and yet I'm already feeling the pressure. Ok, half of the pressure is caused by myself because I didn't complete my holiday homework so I'm chiong-ing now. Nevertheless, I'm sure everybody can already sense the pressure and all that's coming up. For a start, my class is super suay because I've asked around and even classes like 4J whose timetable ended about the same time as us last year gets to go home early this year! (Their latest release time is 2+!) Even 4A doesn't have to stay back as late as us! (Even though I think they would on their own accord) Anyway, my class has to stay till 5pm on every Thurs for bicultural! That sucks! Rah!
On Thurs which was the first day of actual lessons, I pia-ed home and reached at about 6pm. Then, I went on to shower and eat my dinner and continued to pia the overdue and new homework. Piaed till about 11, slept at 1130. But I must say that I've proven to myself that I'm able to pia homework as well if I wish to. Completed quite alot of work in that few hours.
I don't have any new year resolutions this year but I am definitely going to push myself harder. Last year's GPA was not good at all, it was only a borderline pass! Definitely have to work harder man, for subjects like Math and Bio. Which I'm extremely weak in. Hmm. But I think for subjects like Clit, Geog and Bicultural, I hope to be able to use them to pull my grades up. Though they weren't that bad last year, I defintely didn't push myself to the max. This year I hope to be able to!
So I've got to pia more and stop getting distracted by the stupid computer. Hmm. The feeling of pia-ing is tiring but it also gives you a sense of achievement because you know your time was spent wisely. It's like making your days very chong1 shi3. Have to work harder! And stop feeling so tired all the time.
Another important point to note is that I've to prevent myself from falling sick all the time! I know I have an extremely weak body because I fall sick ever so often. So I've to try to make myself healthier!
Hmm, that's it I guess. Nothing much to blog already. Haha. Except that I'm still pretty not used to the new uniform. It's like so ACJC pls! Rah. RV is still the same. Nothing much to say le..bye!
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