Today's the end of CTs. Not quite act, there's still clit but its one week away so can slowly study...zzz. I seriously think I screwed up CTs. And the point is, I'm feeling worse because I screwed up the papers that I'm supposed to be more confident in. To be more precise, it's the humanities and language papers larh. But I think I totally screwed up this time. Not even lang arts which I often claim to be a giveaway paper cause no one would fail it. Zzzz. Oh well. At least those papers are the kind which you can't exactly prepare for, so the feeling of guilt is less.. in a way. Yep. Just keeping my fingers crossed for the results to be good.
Anyway, I've so many thoughts going on in my mind now...I shall blog about them in chinese bcos I think they can convey my feelings better.
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关于他的事，我感到无言。
一直以来，我认为自己非常了解他，但没想到，他真的变了。彻底的变了。我一直不敢相信，直到他亲口说出口，说他已感到自己变了，而且变成了一个连他自己都不知道是谁的人。
为什么才短短的两个多月，他会变了那么多呢？
逻辑性的分析能告诉任何人，这种变化其实是自然的，如他所说，这都是成长中的一部分。但我总认为，那不是真正的他。
他告诉我，不要再对他持有任何的感情，因为这只会伤害我自己。这我当然知道。但感情的事，有的时候真的不由得自己。
不过我想，是时候了。我这个人很奇怪，常常喜欢在朋友面前逞强，但其实心里根本没有那么坚强。为了我心爱的人，我能默默的忍受一切，只要看到他幸福，开心就好。但我想，过了昨天晚上的谈话后，我认为我已经没有必要再停留在之前的回忆里了。之前我认为，他不需要我，但他也不至于完全不把我放在眼里了吧？不过事实已证明，我不再需要欺骗自己，因为他真的已把我忘了。
现在的我，脑海里有很多复杂的想法。但唯一能肯定的是，我已经决定忘了他，忘了从前的事了。我不知道我需要多久的时间，不过我真的认为，我没有必要再为了他这种人而担心了。他爱怎么做，就怎么做吧。他说的对， 我没有必要管他，也没有权利再管他了。
既然他都那么说了，我还能怎样。我也真的不该那么傻了。
但实际点吧。我没他那么厉害，能够那么快又找到另外一个对象。究竟我需要多久的时间才能彻底走出那段21个月的共同回忆呢？
我不知道。但我心已定，这条路的旅程，已经开始了。
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
Sunday, August 3, 2008
Pia for CTs!
Omg I just finished math ws 3e. Though my tutor just went through it I had a hard time doing qn 6.
I'm like seriously stressed up over CTs. There's so much to study, and so little time. Not to mention I'm dead tired. This week's gonna be busy again, returning home late almost every day. At times like these I find CCA irritating cos it takes up our time for studying. Don't get me wrong, it's not that I don't like CCA but I obviously need more time for revision. My results ain't good, afterall. Some might argue that even if there's no CCA, we wouldn't use that time for studying anyway. That's true, but at least it can be time used for resting. I'm the kind who gets very stressed up when I know that there's alot for me to do but no time and energy. Oh man. At least we can put aside CID for now. Or so I hope.
Yesterday was quite a happy day for me though it was tiring. Woke up earlier than school day (by only 5 mins actually) and travelled down to Bradell with dancers for cip. After which I returned home and got ready to go out. Met Peiying at Clarke Quay MRT before going to shop for gifts for Grace to support her performance. Later, we took the bus down and along with a bunch of other rvians, couldn't find our way to DBS Arts centre. So we were kinda late and ended up running to the place. I was running in heels! Then had blisters, : (. Peiying said I was the representative for being able to endure pain. haha.
The production itself was great! The crew did a great job at acting out the emotions of the enraged animals, determined to bring about some changes for themselves. However, I personally find it more interesting and exciting to go for a production which we don't know the story beforehand so that there's this feeling of suspense. I thought the production was great on the whole, but that feeling of suspense was lacking cos there wasn't really much difference from the original story. Nevertheless, it was a great job! I was amazed by the performance of certain characters.. eg Ariel did a great job for Napoleon's role. Of course, many others, not forgetting our beloved friend Grace whom we where there to support, did a fantastic job as well! Congrats ELDDS!
After the play Peiying and I wanted to go to starbucks for a drink..initially we stopped by the outlet close to DBS arts centre. I found it quite weird that there wasn't my favourite range of Frappe to be found on the menu, so I told her maybe that outlet was smaller and didn't have all the flavours available. So we decided to head down to Liang Court which we were at earlier to buy Grace's gifts. Unfortunately, it was packed and there weren't seats for us. AND we found the menu to be exactly the same as the outlet earlier, which was much emptier. I was feeling so sorry. Haha. (I still think that those 2 outlets might not have the complete menu. I mean, frappe just disappeared? Thats weird.) So we settled for McCafe instead. Oh btw, I forgot to mention we saw Leon at subway's cashier when we were trying to find seats at starbucks. haha. random.
Had Mocha Frappe at McCafe and Peiying had Double Chocolate Frappe. Not bad if you ask me. I thought it was pretty good for $4.70. Starbucks would've been about close to 7 bucks if I'd bought the same thing. Okay, I admit starbucks would've tasted better but McCafe's is good enough alr, for that price. So you guys might wanna try it sometime. I don't mind going there if I'm on a tighter budget but feel like having some quality ice blended caffeine : D
Talked to Peiying until about 11 before heading back to the MRT to go home. Seemed like quite a short chat, when actually it lasted for about an hour. I guess we have simply too much to catch up on since we haven't met for so long. More gatherings pls! I don't mind meeting up just for a few hours on weekends..the feeling of reminiscing with old pals is fantastic : )
Alright, I'd better go back to studying for the upcoming math quiz on Wed. Didn't take many pics so I won't bother posting them up. Jiayou everyone for CTs! It's time to pia all over again like we did for mid years. Oh bother.
Nvm, I must tell myself : I can do it! And the same goes out to all of u!
I'm like seriously stressed up over CTs. There's so much to study, and so little time. Not to mention I'm dead tired. This week's gonna be busy again, returning home late almost every day. At times like these I find CCA irritating cos it takes up our time for studying. Don't get me wrong, it's not that I don't like CCA but I obviously need more time for revision. My results ain't good, afterall. Some might argue that even if there's no CCA, we wouldn't use that time for studying anyway. That's true, but at least it can be time used for resting. I'm the kind who gets very stressed up when I know that there's alot for me to do but no time and energy. Oh man. At least we can put aside CID for now. Or so I hope.
Yesterday was quite a happy day for me though it was tiring. Woke up earlier than school day (by only 5 mins actually) and travelled down to Bradell with dancers for cip. After which I returned home and got ready to go out. Met Peiying at Clarke Quay MRT before going to shop for gifts for Grace to support her performance. Later, we took the bus down and along with a bunch of other rvians, couldn't find our way to DBS Arts centre. So we were kinda late and ended up running to the place. I was running in heels! Then had blisters, : (. Peiying said I was the representative for being able to endure pain. haha.
The production itself was great! The crew did a great job at acting out the emotions of the enraged animals, determined to bring about some changes for themselves. However, I personally find it more interesting and exciting to go for a production which we don't know the story beforehand so that there's this feeling of suspense. I thought the production was great on the whole, but that feeling of suspense was lacking cos there wasn't really much difference from the original story. Nevertheless, it was a great job! I was amazed by the performance of certain characters.. eg Ariel did a great job for Napoleon's role. Of course, many others, not forgetting our beloved friend Grace whom we where there to support, did a fantastic job as well! Congrats ELDDS!
After the play Peiying and I wanted to go to starbucks for a drink..initially we stopped by the outlet close to DBS arts centre. I found it quite weird that there wasn't my favourite range of Frappe to be found on the menu, so I told her maybe that outlet was smaller and didn't have all the flavours available. So we decided to head down to Liang Court which we were at earlier to buy Grace's gifts. Unfortunately, it was packed and there weren't seats for us. AND we found the menu to be exactly the same as the outlet earlier, which was much emptier. I was feeling so sorry. Haha. (I still think that those 2 outlets might not have the complete menu. I mean, frappe just disappeared? Thats weird.) So we settled for McCafe instead. Oh btw, I forgot to mention we saw Leon at subway's cashier when we were trying to find seats at starbucks. haha. random.
Had Mocha Frappe at McCafe and Peiying had Double Chocolate Frappe. Not bad if you ask me. I thought it was pretty good for $4.70. Starbucks would've been about close to 7 bucks if I'd bought the same thing. Okay, I admit starbucks would've tasted better but McCafe's is good enough alr, for that price. So you guys might wanna try it sometime. I don't mind going there if I'm on a tighter budget but feel like having some quality ice blended caffeine : D
Talked to Peiying until about 11 before heading back to the MRT to go home. Seemed like quite a short chat, when actually it lasted for about an hour. I guess we have simply too much to catch up on since we haven't met for so long. More gatherings pls! I don't mind meeting up just for a few hours on weekends..the feeling of reminiscing with old pals is fantastic : )
Alright, I'd better go back to studying for the upcoming math quiz on Wed. Didn't take many pics so I won't bother posting them up. Jiayou everyone for CTs! It's time to pia all over again like we did for mid years. Oh bother.
Nvm, I must tell myself : I can do it! And the same goes out to all of u!
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