Hey peeps. It's CNY eve today and its 50 mins more till CNY chu yi. I must say that I'm not in the CNY mood at all this year so pardon me for the simple greetings here to everyone. Nevertheless those who are in the CNY mood, pls do enjoy yourselves although I must say my CNY will be a sucky one as usual.
Yesterday was my 17th birthday and I sincerly thank all those who have wished me happy birthday in one way or another. I had quite a good birthday also it wasn't as great as I had wished it would be. Again, pardon me for the lack of excitement in blogging about it here.
The purpose of blogging here today is a solemn one. I got to know of something today which totally made my heart sink. Its so hard, when reality comes crashing to the floor. A couple of years back, I used to always wonder, how some people can be so emo all the time. To me, life was (and still is) filled with happiness. Unfortunately, things ain't always as lucky for people around me. For my loved ones. It pains me to see them like that. I guess its a chain reaction. When you're down, the people who loves you will feel your pain and be sad too. And then the people who cares for those people will be worried as well. It goes on.
Life is unpredictable, yet predictable in a sense. Lately I've been having lots of complicated thoughts running through my head so pardon me for all these things I've been saying that sounds ironic. Everyone knows life isn't perfect and problems here and there is expected, but the main point is that you never expect it to actually happen to you. When it does, you don't know what to do. And that hurts.
As teenagers going through the phase of growing up, we experiment with many things - just in search of what we really like and enjoy, or heck, just for the fun of it. But for some who ain't that lucky, they don't have the luxury to do so. Life during this time is a struggle, and a period of transition where you literally feel yourself mature.
Listen to your surroundings,
Find that tunnel out of you;
Balance out between heart and mind,
And then metamorph.
Stay strong.
Sunday, January 25, 2009
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
I don't know why I'm posting about this so late in the night, but I guess its at night that ppl start to emo, no?
Two things just happened (I can't say what) and they triggered me to ponder about certain things and I find myself starting to get emo once again.
So many questions and thoughts running through my mind now. About others, about society, about myself.
I'm having really random thoughts in my head that don't link with each other whatsoever, and I'm getting pretty troubled over all those silly thoughts. They are so freaking irritating.
I can't say I'm unhappy with my life right now, but there are really certain aspects of it that is starting to bug me. Cant be bothered to go into the details at all though I know ppl reading this right now will have no idea what I'm thinking about. Although they may get the feel of what I'm trying to say.
A big part of 2008 was spent emoing over him. I don't wanna do that anymore in 2009. Lol. But how difficult is that. I'm not the kind who loves easily. Its even harder for me to forget, once I do.
I don't want school to start because I don't want to have to live the same type of life. Restrictions everywhere. In school, the damn inflexible school rules, system and way of running things. A school life that's so predictable, so much to the extend that everyone seems to have more or less lost their motivation to try to fight for what we should be getting. What other jc students are enjoying. I don't want to hate going to school for the next two years. This might sound gross but really, I wanna enjoy learning. I want to have the passion to keep me going. I've never had that in me for the past 4 years, but I'm starting to see the light for this to happen in year 4. Maybe that's what they mean by maturing. But year 4 was too busy, too much of a rush. It was simply a battle against time. Now that we've selected our subject combinations I wanna make sure I enjoy the most out of what I've chosen for myself. Especially CSC and CLL. I even wanna attempt to feel something out of math instead of only hating it. I'm determined to improve in it. But I wonder, will I fall back and falter once I encounter the same things that all rvians are complaining about. The inflexible system. The fatigue. The lack of passion and motivation around in the school environment. This is making me all so sick. I wanna enjoy school life, and I'm already trying my best not to be cynical but its hard. So hard.
And there's the problem of personal life too. Once year 5 starts its not hard to imagine how fast time will past once again. I'm not sure that that's a good or hard thing, but one thing's for sure. Our youth is slipping past our hands. And I don't wanna look back thinking, when I was young, I could rmb nothing but going to rv and complaining about how boring school life was. And how busy it was that it left me with nothing in my personal life, away from school. It almost seems as if I can forsee the days to come along. The weekends whereby we'll be busy studying, me going for tuition, ppl wanting to spend more time with their families, to just enjoy abit of what they can't during weekdays...so busy they have no time for friends. It's almost impossible to have fun with friends outside of school once school starts. For a non school related purpose. And this sucks because we're teenagers now and friends are supposedly such an important aspect of our lives. Damn. Its not that I hate my family. But there are too many restrictions in the family, that sometimes one cannot take it no matter the purpose behind it. Teenage years are supposingly the most rebellious years, no? Increasingly I'm getting more and more irritated by the fact that I face so many restrictions in this family. I'm old enough and sensible enough to decide for myself, what I should or should not be doing. Sometimes it hurts to know that parents don't seem to trust you.
So many restrictions. Damn. Why does it seem as if people dun wanna give me a chance. School, family. I see little hope in bringing about much change. Change may not definitely be good, but I see that its about time I should bring about some changes. Its getting way too much of a routine, too much of an oppress for me. I need some space to breathe.
Two things just happened (I can't say what) and they triggered me to ponder about certain things and I find myself starting to get emo once again.
So many questions and thoughts running through my mind now. About others, about society, about myself.
I'm having really random thoughts in my head that don't link with each other whatsoever, and I'm getting pretty troubled over all those silly thoughts. They are so freaking irritating.
I can't say I'm unhappy with my life right now, but there are really certain aspects of it that is starting to bug me. Cant be bothered to go into the details at all though I know ppl reading this right now will have no idea what I'm thinking about. Although they may get the feel of what I'm trying to say.
A big part of 2008 was spent emoing over him. I don't wanna do that anymore in 2009. Lol. But how difficult is that. I'm not the kind who loves easily. Its even harder for me to forget, once I do.
I don't want school to start because I don't want to have to live the same type of life. Restrictions everywhere. In school, the damn inflexible school rules, system and way of running things. A school life that's so predictable, so much to the extend that everyone seems to have more or less lost their motivation to try to fight for what we should be getting. What other jc students are enjoying. I don't want to hate going to school for the next two years. This might sound gross but really, I wanna enjoy learning. I want to have the passion to keep me going. I've never had that in me for the past 4 years, but I'm starting to see the light for this to happen in year 4. Maybe that's what they mean by maturing. But year 4 was too busy, too much of a rush. It was simply a battle against time. Now that we've selected our subject combinations I wanna make sure I enjoy the most out of what I've chosen for myself. Especially CSC and CLL. I even wanna attempt to feel something out of math instead of only hating it. I'm determined to improve in it. But I wonder, will I fall back and falter once I encounter the same things that all rvians are complaining about. The inflexible system. The fatigue. The lack of passion and motivation around in the school environment. This is making me all so sick. I wanna enjoy school life, and I'm already trying my best not to be cynical but its hard. So hard.
And there's the problem of personal life too. Once year 5 starts its not hard to imagine how fast time will past once again. I'm not sure that that's a good or hard thing, but one thing's for sure. Our youth is slipping past our hands. And I don't wanna look back thinking, when I was young, I could rmb nothing but going to rv and complaining about how boring school life was. And how busy it was that it left me with nothing in my personal life, away from school. It almost seems as if I can forsee the days to come along. The weekends whereby we'll be busy studying, me going for tuition, ppl wanting to spend more time with their families, to just enjoy abit of what they can't during weekdays...so busy they have no time for friends. It's almost impossible to have fun with friends outside of school once school starts. For a non school related purpose. And this sucks because we're teenagers now and friends are supposedly such an important aspect of our lives. Damn. Its not that I hate my family. But there are too many restrictions in the family, that sometimes one cannot take it no matter the purpose behind it. Teenage years are supposingly the most rebellious years, no? Increasingly I'm getting more and more irritated by the fact that I face so many restrictions in this family. I'm old enough and sensible enough to decide for myself, what I should or should not be doing. Sometimes it hurts to know that parents don't seem to trust you.
So many restrictions. Damn. Why does it seem as if people dun wanna give me a chance. School, family. I see little hope in bringing about much change. Change may not definitely be good, but I see that its about time I should bring about some changes. Its getting way too much of a routine, too much of an oppress for me. I need some space to breathe.
Monday, January 5, 2009
Reviving my blog AGAIN
Apologies for the lack of updates! Hahaha. Not many people come here, anyway.
Hoho I can no longer rmb the following events in chronological order, but anyway I'll just *try to* update them in the correct sequence.
Primary School Gathering
It was a primary school gathering organised by Grace and Shermaine, I think. I met up with peiying first at sun plaza for mac breakfast before meeting up with the rest and heading to Dhoby Ghaut for lunch. LOL. Cheap deal there though the food wasn't of good quality. But its a cheap place to go to if you don't mind lousy food and just want a spot to rot at for the whole day with free flow of drinks and ice cream. Oh, the place is called "Just Acia", I think. Lala. Then later a few of us wanted to go to k box but the majority didn't want to. Eventually, we didn't and we headed off to some cafe at Bukit Timah road that's obviously targeted at the rich who have nothing better to do in the afternoons. The place is kinda "ulu" and the desserts/drinks that they sell there is overpriced. Plus point there is that there's plenty of free board games for you to play there, so you don't have to bring your own set of board games out for a gathering. Err, wait a minute, I just realised people don't do that during gatherings, unless they're going to someone else's house LOL. Anyway that day was not bad for a get together after so many years. Seems like peiying and I still click better with the guys. Haha. Went back to sun plaza after that for dinner, before heading back home.
Candid shot taken of some of the peeps while eating..
This was NOT a candid shot. Hahaha.
Group photo! Outside the cafe we went to, swirl.
Dong Zhi
Hoho, Peiying came to my house for a stayover the day after the gathering! Yep, talked alot, sister heart to heart talks. We slept at 5am LOL. And the result was Peiying getting hooked onto criminal minds HAHAHA. Oh well. Not much to say about that day. She saw a few of my dance friends haha. And she thinks they are 'cute'! LOL OMG totally. This obviously 便宜了 lerae, gsh, lyt, erjie. hahaha. To think they had the cheek to call me down to join them at jp immediately when it turned out to be so boring. oh gosh!
The next day was a Sunday, and it was dong zhi! LOL. Friends who know me well enough will know that my family is nowhere near being traditional, but oh well, we do love to EAT! So my dad made tang yuan for the family :D
Adding water to the glutinous flour (dunno what's that called?)..
My dad working hard haha
Shaped in circles!
Putting the tang yuan into water boiled with pandan leaves so it'll smell nice!
Baby barking in hope for his share too!
LOL and guess what, I totally forgot to take a pic of the final product -.-'
How anti-climax hahah...
Outing with dance people/Dinner with Peiying on New Year's Eve
LOL, I was feeling super sian so I wanted to ask people out on new year's eve. Unfortunately, everyone else was alr booked. Then, goh shu hui and I who happened to be talking at that time decided to go out. Luckily erjie and yantong joined us in the end. Although the outing was still considered quite a failure luh. HAHA. But at least we had something to kill off time on new year's eve, huh?
Later I abandoned them *er hem* and went off to meet with peiying again. LOL, yes I know, it seems like she's my only friend. hahaha. Anyway, we were both craving for pasta and good food, so we decided to give spageddies at Paragon a try, instead of the conventional Pastamania. The food there's not bad, although Peiying ordered beef by mistake. But I guess we were quite happy with the experience there. The staff there have efficient service! Everything's pretty fast.
Peiying's baked penne and my meatball spagetti. I KNOW WHAT YOU'RE THINKING. My order looks wrong huh. Even peiying thinks so LOL.
Start of my diet plan (yes, again.)
So um, as you guys can see, with all that good food and going out, obviously I'd have put on ALOT of weight huh. Over the holidays, which I did, okay. The figure on the weighing scale scared me, so I embarked on my diet plan once again.
This time, I was gonna try what I learned from the taiwan show, 女人我最大。An artiste who went on the show said that she slimmed down by eating boiled veggies and beef, and doing alot of exercise. I told my mum about my plan, and she suggested for me to put some seasoning into the boiling water so I could make some soup instead. It would be tastier that way. At first, I was worried that eating so much seasoning would be unhealthy but heck, when u dine outside, they cook with loads of seasoning too so isn't it the same? At least you can control the amount of seasoning you put at home. So I came up with a wonderful creation of WLS! (Weight loss soup, not wanglaoshi LOL)
My WLS is simple. It contains boiled veggies and beef, and anything else that I can throw inside. Probably egg or beancurd. Anything that cooks easily in boiled water and is tasty. I change the soup base by adding in different seasoning. Its low in fat and extremely tasty as well! Maybe that's cos I'm a veggie lover in the first place, and I enjoy drinking soup alot. So I love my WLS to bits! I won't disclose my weight, but I can only say that I've lost 2 kg so far by drinking it for a few days only! Not to mention I did eat stuff I'm not supposed to eat during these few days, like mcwings meal and bubble tea LOL. But I'm positive it does work! Anyway, even if it doesn't help in making me lose weight, at least its a healthy and simple meal that I can whip up anytime myself. So cheers to WLS!!!
Cooking it..
All ready and served! That's tonight's dinner. I added miso paste in today.
Oh, and if you're worried that drinking soup with veggies won't make you full, just cook a bigger pot! I don't deny that I get hungry really easily, so I can't possibly be like other people and eat really really little or survive on only fruits when I'm on a diet. However, since I love veggies alot, just like my mum, the both of us have been drinking WLS together! So yeap, she washes alot of veggies so I throw alot in! That makes quite a huge portion of soup, that's enough for two big servings! So now I can eat alot and yet feel healthy and low in fat intake!
P.S I just realised that I sound like I'm advertising for WLS. As if its some product that I am manufacturing now LOL.
Okay, there's still work that I've yet to blog about. More on that in my next post!
Hoho I can no longer rmb the following events in chronological order, but anyway I'll just *try to* update them in the correct sequence.
Primary School Gathering
It was a primary school gathering organised by Grace and Shermaine, I think. I met up with peiying first at sun plaza for mac breakfast before meeting up with the rest and heading to Dhoby Ghaut for lunch. LOL. Cheap deal there though the food wasn't of good quality. But its a cheap place to go to if you don't mind lousy food and just want a spot to rot at for the whole day with free flow of drinks and ice cream. Oh, the place is called "Just Acia", I think. Lala. Then later a few of us wanted to go to k box but the majority didn't want to. Eventually, we didn't and we headed off to some cafe at Bukit Timah road that's obviously targeted at the rich who have nothing better to do in the afternoons. The place is kinda "ulu" and the desserts/drinks that they sell there is overpriced. Plus point there is that there's plenty of free board games for you to play there, so you don't have to bring your own set of board games out for a gathering. Err, wait a minute, I just realised people don't do that during gatherings, unless they're going to someone else's house LOL. Anyway that day was not bad for a get together after so many years. Seems like peiying and I still click better with the guys. Haha. Went back to sun plaza after that for dinner, before heading back home.
Candid shot taken of some of the peeps while eating..
This was NOT a candid shot. Hahaha.
Group photo! Outside the cafe we went to, swirl.
Dong Zhi
Hoho, Peiying came to my house for a stayover the day after the gathering! Yep, talked alot, sister heart to heart talks. We slept at 5am LOL. And the result was Peiying getting hooked onto criminal minds HAHAHA. Oh well. Not much to say about that day. She saw a few of my dance friends haha. And she thinks they are 'cute'! LOL OMG totally. This obviously 便宜了 lerae, gsh, lyt, erjie. hahaha. To think they had the cheek to call me down to join them at jp immediately when it turned out to be so boring. oh gosh!
The next day was a Sunday, and it was dong zhi! LOL. Friends who know me well enough will know that my family is nowhere near being traditional, but oh well, we do love to EAT! So my dad made tang yuan for the family :D
Adding water to the glutinous flour (dunno what's that called?)..
My dad working hard haha
Shaped in circles!
Putting the tang yuan into water boiled with pandan leaves so it'll smell nice!
Baby barking in hope for his share too!
LOL and guess what, I totally forgot to take a pic of the final product -.-'
How anti-climax hahah...
Outing with dance people/Dinner with Peiying on New Year's Eve
LOL, I was feeling super sian so I wanted to ask people out on new year's eve. Unfortunately, everyone else was alr booked. Then, goh shu hui and I who happened to be talking at that time decided to go out. Luckily erjie and yantong joined us in the end. Although the outing was still considered quite a failure luh. HAHA. But at least we had something to kill off time on new year's eve, huh?
Later I abandoned them *er hem* and went off to meet with peiying again. LOL, yes I know, it seems like she's my only friend. hahaha. Anyway, we were both craving for pasta and good food, so we decided to give spageddies at Paragon a try, instead of the conventional Pastamania. The food there's not bad, although Peiying ordered beef by mistake. But I guess we were quite happy with the experience there. The staff there have efficient service! Everything's pretty fast.
Peiying's baked penne and my meatball spagetti. I KNOW WHAT YOU'RE THINKING. My order looks wrong huh. Even peiying thinks so LOL.
Start of my diet plan (yes, again.)
So um, as you guys can see, with all that good food and going out, obviously I'd have put on ALOT of weight huh. Over the holidays, which I did, okay. The figure on the weighing scale scared me, so I embarked on my diet plan once again.
This time, I was gonna try what I learned from the taiwan show, 女人我最大。An artiste who went on the show said that she slimmed down by eating boiled veggies and beef, and doing alot of exercise. I told my mum about my plan, and she suggested for me to put some seasoning into the boiling water so I could make some soup instead. It would be tastier that way. At first, I was worried that eating so much seasoning would be unhealthy but heck, when u dine outside, they cook with loads of seasoning too so isn't it the same? At least you can control the amount of seasoning you put at home. So I came up with a wonderful creation of WLS! (Weight loss soup, not wanglaoshi LOL)
My WLS is simple. It contains boiled veggies and beef, and anything else that I can throw inside. Probably egg or beancurd. Anything that cooks easily in boiled water and is tasty. I change the soup base by adding in different seasoning. Its low in fat and extremely tasty as well! Maybe that's cos I'm a veggie lover in the first place, and I enjoy drinking soup alot. So I love my WLS to bits! I won't disclose my weight, but I can only say that I've lost 2 kg so far by drinking it for a few days only! Not to mention I did eat stuff I'm not supposed to eat during these few days, like mcwings meal and bubble tea LOL. But I'm positive it does work! Anyway, even if it doesn't help in making me lose weight, at least its a healthy and simple meal that I can whip up anytime myself. So cheers to WLS!!!
Cooking it..
All ready and served! That's tonight's dinner. I added miso paste in today.
Oh, and if you're worried that drinking soup with veggies won't make you full, just cook a bigger pot! I don't deny that I get hungry really easily, so I can't possibly be like other people and eat really really little or survive on only fruits when I'm on a diet. However, since I love veggies alot, just like my mum, the both of us have been drinking WLS together! So yeap, she washes alot of veggies so I throw alot in! That makes quite a huge portion of soup, that's enough for two big servings! So now I can eat alot and yet feel healthy and low in fat intake!
P.S I just realised that I sound like I'm advertising for WLS. As if its some product that I am manufacturing now LOL.
Okay, there's still work that I've yet to blog about. More on that in my next post!
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